The Next Chapter

I've never been "the skinny girl" or even the average weight. It's never really bothered me. Yeah, sometimes it hurt when I was shopping and the store didn't have my size, or when someone would make a comment about it. But I've always been taught to love myself.

That being said, I realize that weight is a big part of health, and the more you weigh, the less healthy you are. So I have started Weight Watchers. I was very apprehensive about starting it. With a lot of diet plans, when you stop eating their food, you gain all of your weight back. Luckily, Weight Watchers doesn't require you eat only certain foods. In fact, you can technically eat anything. And I love it. Usually I have an idea of what I would like for dinner, so I'll go and see how many points it is and I will work the rest of my day around that. And I like that it really makes me think about how many fruits and vegetables and water that I have a day. I've never been big on them, but they cost me 0 points, and they are pretty filling. I do feel a little like a rabbit having fruits at breakfast and lunch and salads at lunch and dinner, but I know that it's good for me.

I've already seen improvements. It's been one week. I had my first official weigh in today. I've been weighing myself every day, but the official one was today. This first week, I lost 8 pounds. I know it's going to be less and less from here on out, but it felt good looking at the scale and not seeing the number I've seen the past 3 months. Now I am just 6 pounds away from my first goal weight and 71 pounds away from my final goal weight.

Tomorrow I'll start my work out regiment. It's the same Tracy Anderson that I was doing before my life turned upside down. It worked so well last time. Last time, I immediately started feeling things tighten up, and I only did it for a week before stopping. I know that if I stick with it, I will see results. I'm more excited to see inches go away over pounds going away. The inches going away means that my body is tight and fit. With only losing weight, your skin will be flabby and it won't be firm. I don't want that. I want to remain looking youthful.

One thing that makes me a little sad, losing my girls. They are one thing that I really have learned to embrace. I know how to dress around them when I'm looking for a certain style and they are very much a part of me. I know it sounds funny and weird, but it's just something. Now, I have been told by my mother that they will always be more voluptuous thanks to certain genes, but until I get there, I just won't know.

It's just all part of my new life, which is going quite well I might add. At first, it was a little shaky. There were a lot of maintenance issues that needed to be dealt with (and I'm still finding some), but all but one of the big issues has been taken care of, along with some little ones. Me and my mom had a nice day shopping buying some decorations for the house. My bedroom is perfect. Aside from in the future buying the dresser and nightstand that match, my room does not need any kind of change. I love it. It has this nice French theme to it and I have a lovely comforter that's the colors that I wanted (purple and gray) and it just kind of fell together. My living room needs a couple more small pieces. There's a decorative lamp at Kirklands that I want, and then one wall still needs one or two pieces, I'm just not sure what. My kitchen could use a little color. If after a few months I decide that I'll want to live out the rest of my college days here, I might paint it a soft color to help that. But it's too small of a place to put a lot of decorations without making it look smaller. My breakfast nook is the room that needs the most. It's my pop culture corner, and right now all I have is my Beatles poster and this really awesome glitter/mirror guitar and a really small painting of mine. But over time, I will collect pictures and poster and other awesome blingy things for it. It really is me. And I am happy with it.

I am slowly starting the job hunt. I am getting bored spending my days going back and forth between watching TV and playing Sims on the computer. Adding in exercise will help that a little bit, but I need social interaction. As much as I'm sure my mom loves it, I find myself calling her even when I have nothing to talk about. I've applied at one place online, and I'll go and see what other place require that you do it online. I find it really annoying when you go to a place and they tell you "Yes, we're hiring, but it's online." I think if a place is hiring, then they should be able to hand you a piece of paper. If you're not, then sure, keep it online, but I think it would benefit them more to have them in hand if they need to hire someone quickly. But I do need a job. I need money to buy stuff for my pop culture corner and my future dresser and nightstand.

All in all, I am happy right now. I'm happier than I've ever been. I feel it more and more every day. I'm really excited to see what happens while I'm in this stage of my life.